How Do I Find My Way – poetry

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How do I find my way?
What is the reason why?
How do I know what is the truth
When I see my life pass me by
I need to know what’s real
I need to know what I should do
No one told me. No one showed me
I had no choice you helped me through

What I believe isn’t helping me
So I have to ask again
What is the reason why I’m here
What caused my life to be
So far away from all I love
So many pieces fell apart
Still I should thank a god above?
who caused this puzzle of a man
to wonder why this is the truth
If it doesn’t tell me who I am

Nothing is out there watching me
No one cares and no one plans
No one knows when I’ll be free
No one cares or understands
It’s up to me and what I do
I don’t know, I can’t undo
the reasons why this tragedy
Made me question my belief
It hasn’t helped one day in here
I learned to fear I learned grieve

I yearned to learn a different way
Take control and never blame
My life on any other cause
I bent the rules I played the game
I never fear these years because
I lost these years by my own hand
It took twelve years to understand

© 2018 Sonni Quick

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The Road I Traveled

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THE ROAD I TRAVELED

Living and making it count ’til the end
Knowing it matters. Not giving up
It’s easy to say I’m sorry, my friend
Sometimes I’m tired. I’ve been through enough
But I can’t give up now, I fought to be here
I promised myself I had much more to give
I had to make the most of these years
Or what was the reason for wanting to live?

The longer I live I see in my mind
The road I traveled that brought me to where
I could see down the road to dreams I would find
One foot, than another will take me there.

No one told me living was easy
If I had known the troubles to come
Would I change? Would I choose to be me
There are roads far more traveled. Would I have begun?
Knowing time is not on my side

no one would care if I laid down my dreams
I’m still young, my mind inside of me lied
Don’t lay down no matter how easy it seems

The longer I live I see in my mind
the road I traveled that brought me to where
I can see where I’m going and dreams I would find
One foot than another has taken me there.

Sonni Quick copyright 2017

handwriting music

 

How My Mother Paid Her Dues

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Sitting in the chair by the window

Sitting in a chair with big wheels

Thinking of her recent past

moving fast, but now so slow

not knowing how much memory aging steals

It was just a little while ago

she fed her cat and dressed herself

The loss of pride, she had no choice

she had to let it go

She swallows hard and fights the tears

and says this isn’t hell

She feels grateful for the life she had

no one will ever know

the pain inside, the fight for life

can she find a place to be?

 She doesn’t know how to live

within these closing walls

Look to the right, look to the left 

They think she doesn’t see

They stick their arms out just in case

her body sags and falls

Make sure she’s safe, feed her meals

call her once a day

Do what they can with their busy lives

there  isn’t time for more

Everyone keeps living, they’ll be there soon

she knows they’ll say

Not understanding years are short

The door will close for good one day

When life demands you pay your dues

your choices paid the toll

The effects from how you lived your life

stare you in the face

She laughs, how useless are your fears

if you trust what you have learned

the mystic law, the parchment scroll

she vows to find in these last years

new memories sewn on happy lace

aging gracefully, appreciation for living

Dedicated to my mother – Wilma Fritz b. 1933

I am who I am because of you. Thank you.

Humpty Dumpty Fell Off His Wall

 Humpty Dumpty is doomed to fall off its wall.
Will conviviality with Ryan glue it together at all?
All the King’s bigots and old white GOP men
have no choice but to like it, but can they pretend?

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The party is shattered, it will never be the same
The people are angry and it’s these men they blame
The people have spoken, we’re tired of life
being constantly lowered and filled with more strife

Your bank accounts swell with the money you’ve stolen
Our wallets are empty while yours are so swollen
American will never be quite the same
The GOP party won’t be old white men again

Nor the Clintons the Bushs or any plutacracy
No more parties of power where we play along willingly
The people have spoken, no matter what side
But It took a lunatic like Donald to open all eyes

To show us we don’t have to be so complacent
Create wars for profit with our kids for deployment
Both parties will change and we’ll write all new rules
No more lies and smokescreens that play us for fools

But if bigots and racists think they can hurt any people
or use God with his playbook when all people are equal
If you cause hate and suffering to those you don’t like
you’re no better than those who think they’re godlike

We have the chance, the power is ours
We can use it for better or we can leave scars
of a battle we can win if we don’t act so stupid
yelling names at each other with threats that we boasted.

We’re mad as hell; we’re not going to take it anymore
We need to work together and kick them right on out the door!

by Sonni Quick   copyright 2016

I Changed My Mind

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I Changed My Mind

by Sonni Quick

I’ve learned it’s okay to change my mind
Do what I want in the nick of time
I changed my day to something else
than what I said I’d do. It’s fine
I try to please, do what you want
You only want the best for me
Should I pretend, put on a front
When there is someplace else I’d rather be?
I love the time I spend with you
Today there is something else to do
I sat and thought, how do I choose
when minutes of the day are few
So now I sit alone with me
No smiles to smile. No words to speak
My space is quiet with time to think
and find the words I want to write
I’m happy now, my day feels right