How Do I Find My Way – poetry

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How do I find my way?
What is the reason why?
How do I know what is the truth
When I see my life pass me by
I need to know what’s real
I need to know what I should do
No one told me. No one showed me
I had no choice you helped me through

What I believe isn’t helping me
So I have to ask again
What is the reason why I’m here
What caused my life to be
So far away from all I love
So many pieces fell apart
Still I should thank a god above?
who caused this puzzle of a man
to wonder why this is the truth
If it doesn’t tell me who I am

Nothing is out there watching me
No one cares and no one plans
No one knows when I’ll be free
No one cares or understands
It’s up to me and what I do
I don’t know, I can’t undo
the reasons why this tragedy
Made me question my belief
It hasn’t helped one day in here
I learned to fear I learned grieve

I yearned to learn a different way
Take control and never blame
My life on any other cause
I bent the rules I played the game
I never fear these years because
I lost these years by my own hand
It took twelve years to understand

© 2018 Sonni Quick

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Piano Impro Music of Sonni Quick – “Drifting on a Cloud”

Sonni Quick hands on the piano keyboard

This is my newest piano piece. My music is always improvised. I play what I feel. This is the perfect piece of music when I need to unwind from a stressful day.  I try to end my day and go to sleep – except I can’t.  Sleep doesn’t come. My day keeps going around and around inside my head as I search for ways for solutions. I have a lot going on.  different projects. They are never finished.

I have two blogs to keep going.  One, this one, is where I post my creativity and sometimes the work of others.  I rant and rave.  I write poetry and music. My other blog is on prison issues and Jami’s life.  I write a newsletter – ITFO News. the letters stand for Inside The Forbidden Outside, the book I am writing about Jamie’s life that is in a second rewrite as I polish it to make it the best I can.  I want to help him get hiss life started again when he gets out in about 4 years. This is all in my other blog My  Name is Jamie. My Life in Prison. My facebook page is very active for Jamie Life In Prison.

My music web pages take a lot of maintenance . One is SkunkRadioLive. – a indie radio station out of London. Also ReverbNation. – a very popular website for musicians. Another is Soundcloud. I’m putting an album out “Stories Without Words”.  When It is done you’ll find the album at CDBaby, Spotify and others that sell indie music. 

All of these sites take a lot of communication with other people, writers and musicians. When you are an indie writer and an indie musician there is no label or publishing house to do the work.  I have to do it all myself and hope those who  follow me on social media sign up for my newsletter, share a few things and help me push it forward.

And I love it all. 

I feel in control of my my life.  I make the causes. I’ll get the effects.  I’m not waiting for anything else out there to change my life for me I try as much as possible to help other people.  I share their work.  I encourage people.  it is easy to get discouraged. We put ourselves out there and people judge the quality of what we do.When I was a young musician it was different.  Youth try to be famous. They want to play big arenas and make gobs of money.  I know I did. But life got in the way.  it wasn’t to be.  Now it isn’t important.  I just want to play music.  I’ve have played the piano for many years and I like where I am now. I’m not trying to sound like anyone other than myself.  If you like it – great.  If you don’t?  Well, you can’t please everyone. I also think I am writing a book that will have an appeal to many people.  I have to have that confidence or I will never finish it.

Every day I spin my plates and while one is spinning I spin another and gradually all of my projects move forward. I believe in myself and having that confidence is have the battle.  too many people start something and quit halfway through with excuses for why they quit.  Not me.  life isn’t about getting to your going – it is the process you go through as you make your way there.  If you don’t love what you do you’ll find ways to quit.

The hours of the day go by.  I forget to go to bed and when I do I lay there awake – thinking. As soon as I think I can go to sleep something startles me fully awake again.  I look at the clock. 4am, 5am 6am.  I blew it going to sleep.  When it starts getting light out I know I’m in trouble. I know there is no way I can get enough sleep now and I’ll feel draggy all day. I have gone through many days with less than 4 hours of sleep.

Now, when I have a night when I can’t sleep, I put on my headphones and pull up the website for SkunkRadioLive, click on the first piece of music, turn it down low and escape into the notes as they play.  It really is the soundtrack for dreams.  Beautiful melodies that melt into each other. I enjoy music as I play. I close my eyes and let it flow from my fingers. It’s relaxing and often haunting. I hope you enjoy it.  Let me know.  There is enough music recorded to play for a couple hours and never repeat.  Hopefully you’ll be fast asleep long before that. Z Z z z z . . .

Inspiration of Song

I “accidentally” found this writer on about.me.com. I have a page there, too. Great site. I read she just published a book I’m going to go get. Because I, too, am writing a book. I know how much work it takes to do that, or rather, I’m learning how much work it takes, I wanted to help pass the word. The video she posted on this page is really very good. The lyrics grabbed me.Go to her pages and see if bit is something you might like and pass it along. The video is a good song. The lyrics resonated with me. So have listen, and have have a great day!

A.C. Melody

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So, yesterday was Tuesday and I didn’t get a Triple Lyrics post up here.  Mostly, because I was writing and it was going really well.  Also, because I haven’t been exploring a lot of new music lately, as much as I’ve been listening to old stuff that I’ve already shared with everyone.  I will have to try to look into that for next week (hopefully).

I discovered something interesting about one of my unfinished stories not too long ago, that I never knew.  It was 100% inspired by just one song.  I know, that’s crazy right?  How could I not realize that at the time?  I’m not sure, but I’m thinking it must have been a subconscious thing.  I just happened to start writing the story around the same time one of my favorite bands released a new album and it was the only CD I listened…

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