Dreams of Dreaming

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I’ve been working endless hours lately trying to fit everything in and get my two online stores open – which I did.  I want to encourage you to go.  I am adding new product all the time and I really need your support. The easiest thing to do is go to Facebook and in the search bar put Watch and Whirl.  ( I will later add the store to this blog, too).  I don’t have a separate URL for the Facebook store yet until I get my sales tax ID, but it is still open for business.  If you like and share the page it will help Facebook to increase my organic reach of how many people they will show it to for free.  Ads get pricey, so getting likes and follows really helps in the long run.

I have music instruments, household goodies like really neat rugs, Tiffany style lamps and windows, frangrances and all kinds of items in the Misc Goodies section. and if you have a little girl – and awesome purse for Easter or Spring!

If you are interested I will write a post later and tell you all the steps I took to get started if you’d like to do this yourself.

I did finish a new piece of music  and I want to share that with you and post it before I fall asleep and get caught up in another day. I hope you enjoy.

This is a soundtrack for a chapter in the book I am writing – Inside The Forbidden Outside. The chapter takes place inside a lucid dream.

I am an avid dreamer. Every night, every time I wake I am in a dream. I can get up, use the bathroom, go back to bed and pick up the same dream.  I can also sometimes make myself continue to stay asleep so I can continue to dream until I am done with it.  Can anyone else do that?

Go to my music website and subscribe to my mailing list, which I send once a month so you won’t miss the new music I record. sonniquick.net

My New E-Commerce Store at watchandwhirl.ecwid.com

I decided not to play it safe anymore. Too much is at stake. Survival in the world today.

MY NEW ECWID STORE : WATCH AND WHIRL
It will soon be part of this blog as well everything else I write. I’m contending. I need a way to make the money to finish my book and music  I need to help Jamie survive.

There is still much to do to make it a great site. The opening page of the store has this photo and the link should take you to the store. Check it out! Please? 😁

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I can be impulsive. I’ve been known to take risks and jump in with both feet, realizing I didn’t know how to swim so I better learn what I’m doing very fast.

There are enough people in the world who play it safe. They don’t rock the boat because they don’t want to know what will happen. Not only that, what will people think? You’d be amazed at how little time people spend thinkinv about what you do with your life. They are too busy with their own life.

In the last ten years I have had many health challenges. I had choice. Be a victim, or find a way to get over it. I don’t want to bore you with years. We can either pull ourselves up by the  bootstraps or complain about the bad hand life dealt.

I have always worked hard. It was devastating when I had to close my store in Kew West to check into a hospital. I have never had a “job” that paid me an established paycheck. I thought it was important to be paid more if you worked harder. That keeps me motivated. I’m a dedicated work-a-holic who gets addicted to everything I do and I do not give up easily when I have started something. I had to give up that dream.

It was while being stuck in bed that I began the blogs: mynameisjamie.net and watchandwhirl.com. Then I began writing the book I am still rewriting “Inside The Forbidden Outside” as I learn what is needed to be a better writer. But that is not what this blog post is about. It is about surviving successfully so I can publish it successfully and financially back on my feet. It takes money. Money I don’t have.

ANYWAY. . . this is what I’m leading to. I read an ad somewhere about starting an online store for $47. I clicked on it because the number 47 plays a big part in my life – a subject for another post. It stopped me long enough to read about it. $47 was just the beginning. I have spent 6 weeks learning what to do.

Long story short I took advantage of what they offered. I started researching and learning. I had a vehicle now to build a business one brick at a time. I am opening my first store. There is still a lot of work to do on it and there is only a fraction of the products in that I want, but I can at least show you what I’m doing.

E commerce has grown since I did eBay 18 years ago. There are so many more platforms. The competition for your attention is fierce. To begin, I will have a store at Ecwid, a store on Facebook and a store on Ebay. I  will also put a store on this blog and turn it into a business blog, not just an information one. Today all I can do is put in  a link. I only ask that you take a look. See how I set it up. Do you have any suggestions? Are there products you would buy if they were there?

So many of our connections now are online. Some we talk to for years. Now I need these people who I’ve crossed paths to help me stand up.

Advertising can be costly so the more you share what I’m doing the more it helps. Here is the link to the first store. It will also be at Facebook. Many thanks to my friends who have supported me with my music and book.

Only The Echoes Are Ringing

Last night I uploaded a new piece of music to SoundCloud. This one is different from the rest. I eliminated the piano track that these tracks were recorded for. On a whim I muted it and listened  I hadn’t done that before. I sometimes muted and recorded over tracks but not the main one! I like how it sounded and decided to keep it that way. So what you are hearing is 5 tracks of background music! Only I can imagine the missing track!

You can also hear all of the music and watch the videos at my website sonniquick.net

You can subscribe to my music mailing list at my website. Having the support of people who listen is the only way of knowing if you enjoy what I’m doing. You can download any of the music right now for free. That might change after my book is published because they will be tied together. Indie musicians don’t have contracts with producers who advertise.

You can follow the videos to my Youtube channel – or search for Sonni Quick Piano Improv – which would be great – so you can subscribe and hit that cute little bell to hear about any new videos I post – about twice a month

Peace and Love!

Keeping Time – Where Are Your Memories?

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I came across this quote today:

“Life is not the number of days you live, it’s the number of days you remember”  

I sat and thought about it for quite awhile. I have had quite a life. At 64 I think I can honestly say that I have aggressively filled it with lots of “things”. I never settled. I never let fear take hold. I lived where I wanted to live and I did the things I wanted to do. I dealt with adversity by attacking it head on. If I said I was going to do something I did, and if didn’t work out the way I hoped, it wasn’t for lack of trying, and I didn’t find excuses and justifications and made some other reason to blame.

Most of all, if someone thinks I shouldn’t do something and has nothing to add to the reasons why, than it doesn’t make me not want to do it. My motto – and I mean this – and I’ve told this to probably hundreds of people in the last 40 years:

~If you don’t like what I’m doing, don’t watch me do it~

I don’t care if someone doesn’t like what I do. My life is my life. Period. You shouldn’t try to make people change because it is something YOU wouldn’t do. I don’t do that to them. It’s okay to express your opinion, just don’t expect me to live life the way you would.

I learned many people don’t do what they want because  of fear.

1. Fear of the unknown

2. Fear of failure

3. Fear of what people will think (other people don’t think about you as often as you think they do)  

There are also people who begin something new, but have no follow through. I know a woman – a talented woman – who began many projects, from writing a book, quilting, began a business and did all the preliminary research, created stained glass, even began painting her hallway, and on and on. She quit almost every project after starting enthusiastically.

Unfinished projects. Why? Her answer was, “I’m going to get back to them someday, maybe.” She had such a wonderful creative mind, yet had no confidence in herself. I think the answer was – if she was the one who chose to stop, then it wasn’t because she had failed. She could always begin it again, but seldom did. It was her choice.  She also told me one day, “I wish nothing changed.  I wish I could stay in my house and nothing changed. I don’t want friends, because you have to maintain friendships. If I have no friends no one will expect anything of me.” (and I don’t have to be there for them, either?) 

I thought I could show her something different – that she had value. I encouraged her to believe in herself. The end result – she believed a lie someone told her (I won’t get into that) and wouldn’t talk to me about it. It gave her the excuse to kick me out of her life, ( for the second time, and the first time lasted 35 years)  and she no longer speaks to me anymore. It’s been about 4 years now, I can’t “remember” exactly when. I’ve tried to unsuccessfully squash it down. 

Some people want to disappear. I will have no more memories of her to think about and that makes me sad. I don’t know how she is doing. Some people won’t stand up for their own life. She didn’t want to have a life beyond what appeared in front of her without any effort on her part. If you choose to believe things without finding out the truth you are taking the path of least resistance. Sadly, I’m not the only person she did this to. 

At the end of her life what will she remember? And she is my sister. 

I know my style of living is not for everyone. But I realize life is short and I’m going to die at the end of it. I have wanted to fill it up with memories so when I’m decrepit I can relive my memories. My memories of her are mostly of our childhood. 

My successes, my failures, my friends – many of them are all over the world. They live in my tablet and I can visit with them whenever I want. Except for limited family and neighbors, how many people are good friends who care about you, and you see them face to face? The internet opened up the world. 

Right now I’m making plans to meet up with a young Russian man in his 20’s during a visit to America in June, when I take the train from Harrisburg to Miami on down to the Keys. I make this trek quite often and have met some very interesting people. A man traveling who makes a living betting on sports – older woman who traveled the states when she was young, picking fruits and vegetables and loved it!

My Russian friend and I have been writing and sending pictures since he was about 15 and needed advice on how to talk to a girl in school. He was also learning to play the guitar so we talked about learning music. Such fun. He was just learning English and now speaks it proficiently. He had a goal and is making his goal come true. No, I don’t equate his being Russian with the politics of Russia with the United States. 

I started this post today because I read a quote and it started me thinking about my own life. These were the thoughts that came to mind. What do you think? How do you live your life? What do you think about taking chances and doing something new? Let’s talk about it.

As an afterthought here is music I recorded about Time:

Music, videos  and photos found here at my website

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You Can’t Do Just The Ordinary Things

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I posted this on my other blog mynameisjamie.net as well because my project is about Jamie’s life as much as it is about my music. They are connected. One wouldn’t be the same without the other. 

You better be damn sure whatever project you are working on that you are in it for the long haul or you will fail, or you will give up.

Prison was the long haul for Jamie.

Writing a good first book and learning how to do it was mine.

I dream about finding someone in “the business” who recognizes this and has the clout and connections to do something about it. There! I said it out loud! I put it into the universe. Positive or negative, we create our own personal universe we live in. I have to trust myself.

It has been a couple weeks since I last posted, hasn’t it? I’m a little behind because life has gone into mental high gear. It is my nature to bite off more than I can chew, and then have look to chew very quickly.

And it is not only the ordinary things that have to be done. We all have a life to live. For me it is medical issues that try to get in the way. Through it I have made tremendous progress in the writing of, “Inside the Forbidden Outside.” The music and the music videos I began making a year ago and starting a YouTube Channel, Sonni Quick Piano Improv, cultivating subscribers, added greatly to the busy hours of my day.

Hours spent promoting and marketing the chapters and the music every day pushed my workday (unpaid at this point) to 16 hours a day, usually 7 days a week. This is no exaggeration. Writing slowed down and blog post writing also decreased. But the project as a whole was coming together and moving forward. The response has been overwelming. It’s exciting. Every chapter done, every music recording finished and every video completed by my inexperienced hands has been a source of joy.  And it came with inspiring comments with the connections to people increasing everyday.

I reach people through my music, to touch them emotionally about Jamie’s story. The music is the emotion of the story. It reaches out through my fingers. It is my passion. It is that passion for grasping life in your hands ant not letting go that separates the winners from the losers.

When you truly love to do something you spend every hour of every day working on it in some capacity. No excuses are good enough if you don’t see it through. I think the idea of writing a book with music was a good idea. I have not heard of any other book who combined the story and music together. If you only had one or the other you would have only half of the story.

This story I’m writing, if you haven’t read any of the chapters I’ve posted at this blog is not just someone’s experience living with the brutality of the American prison system – the Prison Industrial Corporation. It is about love and hope – failure and determination above all else, to take back his life. He was going to be a father to the son he has rarely seen. He wanted to go to school and learn things. He was a good man who was never given a chance from the moment he was born,

because. . . . he was black.. . . he was poor.. . . and he came from a southern state known for racism – and he had epilepsy.

The odds were against him. He was part of a family with four children, a mother and no father, so they raised themselves with little adult supervision. Mom worked hard to provide for her family, so how could she be there to raise them? I know that dilemma well.

Will this book help people to better understand what being in prison is truly about, and will they understand the psychological damage from grief, caused by loss? Will they understand the constant struggle inside the mind, trying to keep itself together, when what it really wants is to kick the walls and scream?

Will readers understand that? Because I know from talking to people ‘out here’ that many people don’t. The sheer number of people who end up locked in a cell that shouldn’t be is absurdly high – and then there are those who still think only the guilty go to prison.

Not every human being should be characterized and judged for the rest of his life because she/he went to prison. It is not the sum total of that person. When Jamie gets out of prison his identity should not be tattooed across his face – EX FELON. That is what happens to so many, making it so hard to survive. Even the ones who have been exonerated after decades in prison because the were falsely imprisoned have to live with that tattoo just because they were in there.

This book is the story of a great many men and a rising number of women. They are considered to be expendable people in this country which deems White Christian Americans to be a cut above all others as if skin color alone is the key to being a better person, except.  . . a better person knows how false that is and laughs at the notion that skin is the number one prerequisite for being a quality human being. Skin color isn’t even on that list.

What could the criminal justice system do to arrest and incarcerate even more people? There is no separation between good and evil. Money decides your freedom. Lock up people for any reason, true or false, and when they can’t make bail, lock them up anyway, for years! This is what lies in store for low income, minority people in this country whose guilt lies in having the bad luck of not being born in a good white neighborhood.

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I am writing this book because all of this pissed me off. Royally! What a choice of words. So much inhumanity was happening to Jamie and I couldn’t do ANYTHING about it! I had all of this emotion running through me. I had to channel it into something positive.

“I’ll write a blog,” I said. I asked Jamie if it was okay.     “Sure,” he said, “but who would want to read about my life?” But I knew it was an important story because so many people had the same story. I realized before long I needed to write a book. Only I had never written a book (or a blog for that matter). I knew I could do it if I honestly tried.

I worked on it for 2 1/2 years. I learned a lot. I didn’t know enough about how to write a book. Writing a blog and writing a book are two different ways of writing. I took some online classes. I read and read about writing. I started over. I wrote and rewrote and continued learning. I think I am now about 60% done with the rewrite have many good tracks of music.

It is a good thing I did not try to publish the first draft because it gave me more time to be better prepared. You can find all the chapters on this blog, even the first draft chapters if you do a search on the blog using the title of the book. You can see the progress if you are interested in reading it. The first draft has too much information and not enough story. This draft is more about the story and info to support it.

That is it for now, but there is another blog post almost ready to be published – about Jamie ‘s story. A little catch up from the past and why he is where he is now. He can see the light at the end of the tunnel, but he can’t see exactly what it opens up to. 

Until then…

The Reason For My Music Videos

Not much needs to be said here because the video says it all. I hope you stay on my channel and watch those you haven’t seen, subscribe and tap the bell to get notified when there is a new one  Your support of what I’m doing will determine how successful I am when I’m ready to publish my book.  Notifications like this, and my mailing lists are the way I will be able to tell people it is  FINALLY READY. I have a ways to go. About 40% more chapter rewrite and new music. Then it will be ready to edit. As a first time author I need to know if I dotted all the eyes and crossed the t’s. It’s been a fun journey  Thank you! 

Crazy Dreams and Sleepless Nights -YouTube Music Video

This is my most recent music video to go with a chapter in my book  “Inside The Forbidden Outside”.  Life has gotten enormously busy and staying on top of things as my audience grows has been challenging  I have so much appreciation for the people who make the connection between the story and the music who have expressed an interest in the book when it’s done. Does any know how to invent more hours in a day, because there is something that always suffers because of a lack of time to get to it.  What this tells me is that I am onto something good or if be looking for ways to fill my time instead of the other way around

It’s been hard to post ad often as I’d like to, and my numbers suffer because of it. I don’t have the time to go to the many blogs I’ve found and enjoyed. Please forgive me for that. It isn’t because I don’t want to.

There is so much swirling around in my brain of things that needed to be taken care of to clear the space to write. I’ll get back here as often as I can. Please share this with your own social media. Go to my blog mynameisjamie.net and read the chapters I have posted to see how Jamie’s life inside the book is coping with the challenges of prison. At that blog you can subscribe to ITFO News and get the occasional update on the book, music, videos and any news of significance.

You can also go to my music Facebook page : Sonni Quick Piano Improv – like and share with your Facebook friends. I need all the help I can get to reach as many people as possible. 😁

Have a great year!