Oh My! Is 2018 Almost Over?

What a hectic year this has been. Unbelievable. But it has been a wonderful year as well. At the end of 2017 I decided to compellingly rewrite my book “Inside The Forbidden Outside”. 90k words, plus a new book cover. Learning to write is a craft like any other. It takes practice and a quest for knowledge. 

I’ve been traveling by train to and from the Florida Keys for a year, a month in each place and then switching, as I try to help my son with his two youngest children. That is a challenge, grabbing quiet hours! Through all of it life has been full and rewarding. I am optimistic that what I’m doing will be successful. I wouldn’t be able to do it without the followers I have developed at all the websites I utilize. The positive feedback I get back tells me I’m on the right track. 

I have written many things in my life along with two blogs and had a short story published in an anthology, but it is not the same as writing a book. It was a good experience writing the first complete manuscript but it didn’t really say what I wanted to say. So I studied to figure out what I wanted to accomplish. I wanted to finish this second draft by the end of this year but there is still so much to do. I spend every waking moment on some aspect of this, spinning one necessary plate after another.

I am more than half way done with this draft  and quite a bit of music has been recorded so far. If I only had to finish writing the book it would most likely be done. Adding music and promoting it is time consuming. It is also hard to spend enough time on my blogs or being able to go back to blogs I have liked as often as I want to.

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I sincerely appreciate those who listen to my music, watched my music videos and read any parts of the chapters I have posted. It is my desire to write this story as best I can in a way that entices you to read until the end and share it with your friends. I believe what I am writing has value – educating society to understand the truth about what lies in inside our prisons. You can read more on my other blog – My Name is Jamie. My Life in Prison.  The first post on the blog gives you the opportunity to purchase a T-shirt or totebag with Jamie’s picture as I try to raise funds to help him. There are also music videos at the blog, but you can go directly to Sonni Quick Improv Piano at YouTube as well to subscribe, like and 

Please subscribe to ITFO News for occasional updates on the book and at my main website – sonniquick.net to hear new music, guaranteed to help you sleep and create wonderful dreams. On my Facebook page Improv Piano Music of Sonni Quick you will also hear the work of other musicians I enjoy and want to share with you. You can also use the share links below to share this post on your own social media. Your support is precious to me.

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Climbing The Mountains – ITFO Chapter and Music Video

 

 

Below is a partial chapter for “Inside The Forbidden Outside”. There was a riot during the midday meal. Tension is always high strung.  It doesn’t take much to set off violence that leads to injuries and death. Guards are extremely outnumbered. There are repercussions to everyone who participates as well as those who don’t.

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CLIMBING THE MOUNTAINS

Oh my God, what was happening? Jamie heard screaming and large objects being thrown against the walls inside the room where the inmates were served food. He could hear the thud of bodies being hit and falling into the tables. Guards were shouting threats, trying to get the chaos under control, but they were losing. The medical unit was going to be busy today.

Jamie was walking down the hall on his way to chow. It was a privilege he had gotten back when he was finally moved from adseg to G4. He had almost made it to the large room when he felt himself being shoved from behind up against the wall. He heard the doors being slammed shut and bolted. There was tension brewing in the air along with the smell of panic.

Two guards stood outside the doors. One guard had his taser pointed at the inmates lined up along the wall. The other one had his baton raised, ready to use if anyone moved. There was a third guard standing in a lookout on the second floor. He had a rifle pointed at them that was loaded with pellets of buckshot. The two guards near them looked scared that the inmates might try to rush and overpower them. One wrong move and someone was going to get killed.

They were short staffed as usual and there was no telling how many guards were inside. It couldn’t be more than a couple because there was no time to call for help. There was usually one guard at either end of the room. They were outnumbered and they knew it.

Being scared didn’t begin to cover what Jamie was feeling. These guards could easily lose control and think they were justified in shooting to protect themselves, especially not knowing if any of their own were being injured or killed on the other side of that door. One shot toward the floor with the pellet gun would riccochet hundreds of buckshot in all directions.

Jamie tried to make himself look as non-threatening as possible. No sudden moves. In fact, no moves at all. It was total bedlam behind the locked door and it could easily turn that way in the hall, too. This was not a good day for dying. Riots didn’t often happen, but when they did they were usually deadly. High tensions started the fighting and once it got started it wouldn’t easily calm down.

More guards soon arrived and they escorted the men back along the wall to their cells. He felt much safer when the cell door shut behind him and he heard the lock click in place.

But what the hell happened in there? Was it planned or did something happen between two people and it got out hand? If he had been inside the chow hall when the doors were closed he would have been screwed big time.

When there was a fight and guards got involved, others joined in. The dudes who started the trouble would expect the other inmates to join them. If they didn’t, they would hunt you down later and mess you up. If you were scared and got yourself chased to another prison, word would get out and people at that prison would find you and make your life miserable. You couldn’t run far enough no matter how many years you got.

If Jamie had gotten involved in the fight the guards could have beaten the crap out of him. If not then, they’d find him later. They would retaliate against everyone involved even if they didn’t do anything. No one would stop them. It was one time they got away with murder with no questions asked. It was a no-win situation no matter how you looked at it.

They would have put him back in adseg in a heartbeat and most likely would never let him out again. Being part of a prison riot would have affected his life in many ways. It didn’t matter that he had not been part of it. Getting caught up in one was all that was needed.

Would it affect the possibility of getting paroled? He didn’t want to think about that. It didn’t happen. He didn’t get caught up it. Less than a minute later and he would have. He didn’t get beat up by the guards and he didn’t get in bad with those who chose to riot. It was close, but luck was on his side this time.

He knew why they did it. So did the warden. People would only put up with being treated like dogs by their jailers for just so long. Kick a dog enough times and he was going to bite back. If you starve them and take away everything that makes them human, when they bite they were going to draw blood. Spray them with chemicals and laugh about it, feed them garbage and ignore them when they are sick and they will eventually riot if the opportunity is there. They aren’t dogs, they’re human beings. The riot might have been started by one of the dudes disrespecting someone’s space but the overall reason was because all of them were disrespected by the system.

Until the people who run this place take care of their end instead of constantly finding ways to make the men responsible for all the trouble there was going to be even more trouble.

The best thing to do was to keep to himself as much as possible. Do his time and stay away from everyone if he could.

Jamie had missed lunch. He was going to get mighty hungry by dinner. It wouldn’t be the last time he would be hungry so it was no big deal. The warden wouldn’t care about that anyway, he had his hands full.

Going over to his locker he went through his books to see if there was one that looked interesting enough to read again. He liked to do that. There was always something he missed in the first reading. Settling down on his bunk he tried to lose himself in some other place and time, somewhere outside this prison cell. He had read more books in the last six years than he ever would have. He found he enjoyed reading and could read a book a day of he had enough.

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Unintended Consequences – Poetry and YouTube Video

Unintended Consequences

I never thought I’d have to live
in such a lonely place
I touch the walls on either side
I never thought I’d call this home
Memories here I can’t erase
A thousand people all alone

I never thought this was where I’d be
My life would work it out
I never dreamed my window
was the only way I’d see
the beauty of the world outside
How can I continue?

An unintended consequence
Not thinking what will be
the end result, not thinking through
Pretending I was being free
I didn’t think, I never thought
my careless choice I can’t undo

I never thought what would I crave
the most if taken away
The touch of skin, your silken breath?
Sends goosebumps up my spine
I shiver once and desire more
“You didn’t think,” I heard you cry

I only have my memories now
To keep me warm at night
I wrap my arms around my head
Pretending you are touching me
It will be years, will you be gone?
Touching someone else instead

An unintended consequence
Not thinking what will be
the end result, not thinking through
Thinking I was being free
But I didn’t think, I never thought
It would mean losing you

By Sonni Quick ©2018

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There is a chapter in the book I am writing with the same title. The book chronicals Jamie’s life in prison and his maturing from a boy into a man. This is a true story taken from hundreds of letters we shared, along with a creative narrative joining the events together  I had to crawl inside his head to understand but after 13 years of writing to him I understand him pretty well. At the link for the chapter you can subscribe to my mailing list to get periodic updates 

Because of the sheer volume of work that needs to be done preparing this book and writing the music and videos it is hard to keep up my 2 blogs as frequently as I’d like. Thank you so much for your support.

Princess Alice – Shunned by The Royal Family – YouTube Video

This is a rather unusual post for me. I was checking  my YouTube channel – Sonni  Quick Improv Piano  – when I saw this video. Fascinating. A deaf member of the royal family and mother of the current  Prince Andrew, husband of the Queen, who the royal family tried to make disappear and even locked her up. Taken away by men in white coats , speaking her from her 5 children. In one sanatarium she was treated by Sigmund Freud, who heavily xrayed her ovaries , without her consent, thinking she would be sent into early menapause. He thought he could alter her desire for sex because she claimed to have a sexual relationship with Jesus. When she wasn’t locked up she did much  to help the needy during the two world  wars  and also wars between other countries. The video includes quite a number of  videos during the time period of 1885 – 1969 and includes footage of  WWI and WWII and what this royal did with her life. There were videos of the royal family never seen before this program .

This video is about 45 minutes long so watch it when you have time . I didn’t intend to watch the entire video but it kept unraveling more story . Enjoy and thanks for watching!

My Mind is Playing Tricks on Me – music

 

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This music was recorded Nov 2017 but the chapter it goes to in my upcoming book, “Inside The Forbidden Outside,” was not ready yet to be written. You can find a partial chapter on this post at my other blog, but to read the entire chapter you have to be subscribed to ITFO News – on that blog post. Not everyone reads every post and can keep up with how this project is going. I never overwhelm email inboxes. I only write on occasion to update the progress and to let you know when it will be published. This draft is 47,000 words so far, 20 chapters and 14 music videos. So it is getting there and is being written with great care. It is the truth about someone’s life, wrapped into a creative non fiction story – and the illusions and dreams that can take place inside someone’s mind. This man is still sitting in solitary confine cell called adseg. As terrible as that is he feels it is better than being in general population (gen pop) at the mercy of the guards, riots, weapons and being exposed to inmates on drugs.

I believe this book provides the insight to see the inmates of our prisons to be people and not commodities to make money from until you wear them out and kill them from neglect while pretending otherwise to the people who read about our prisons in the media. I believe what they do to humans is shameful. Yes, we have very guilty people among the inmates and many suffer from untreated mental illnesses or are caused to have mental breakdowns due to mistreatment. Too many have a callous view of the millions locked up and don’t want to believe there are innocent people locked up and sentences are way to steep and believed to deserve whatever the prisons do to them, especially for blacks and Hispanics whose lives we try to ruin on the outside because they had the “misfortune” of being born with color in their skin. Not until you have a family member who is exposed to this humanity can most people understand what it does to humanity and all their family members ho have to watch the suffering.

My book addresses the reality of being imprisoned – not their guilt, and I will fight to help people understand the part they play by ignoring what they think doesn’t involve them.

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Music For- Watching The Inside World

 

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This is the music for the post of the previous chapter of Inside The Forbidden Outside on my other blog My Name Is Jamie. Later I will do the video. This music quickly became my fastest rising music at SoundCloud. This is the player at reverbnation where I have my website. You can steam my music there and also subscribe to my music mailing list. I might send as email once a month with new info.

Promotion is extremely time consuming. It’s hard to write music and chapters at the same time but I gradually move it forward more every week.

You Only Have One Life – Live It!

 

You Only Have One Life - Live it.Your opinion of yourself becomes your reality. If you have all these doubts, then no one will believe in you, and everything will go wrong. If you think the opposite, the opposite will happen. It’s that simple. The higher your self-belief, the more your power to transform reality. Having supreme confidence makes you fearless and persistent, allowing you to overcome obstacles that stop most people in their tracks.” – Robert Greene

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This is the way I think. I know this affects what happens in my life. We are what we think. There is a saying I have repeated many times throughout my life:

“If you think you can, you can. If you think you can’t, you can’t. You are right on both counts.” 

If I didn’t believe I could do it I would have given up what I am doing right now – writing my book, “Inside The Forbidden Outside.”  I could have stopped. No one would have cared. Many people have started books they never finished.

If you have followed me at all in the last three years – I’ve been writing this book for that long. I never thought it would take this long. It’s a massive project since I added music and videos. I’m 43,000 words into the 2nd draft, and plug away at some aspect every day. 19 chapters, one finished today. The first draft had 88,000 words. I learned a lot – about what was wrong with it. I also learned how much I didn’t know so I started studying everything I could before I started the second draft 10 months ago. You can read chapters at my other blog: mynameisjamie.net

I think this time it’s better. I know it is. I’m determined it will be. I’ve learned that I love to write. I think I can be good at it – and it doesn’t matter how old you are when you begin,

This is why I wrote down these quotes. I stay focused. I keep the end result in my head and don’t allow myself to doubt. It would be easy to think, “Who am I to think I can do this.” I’ve heard, “First books are never successful – I don’t want you to be disappointed when you fail.”

It is rare for me to take a day off. I am always working on some aspect, even if it just keeping up my social media accounts, because it keeps up my fan base with music, or readers. It grows. When I need a break I play my piano.

It would be easy at my age to not begin new dreams and opt for the comfort of what is known, but that isn’t me.

One of the main things that drives me is that Jamie’s life is in the balance. Re reading all of his letters multiple times as I put his story together, crawling inside his head is overwhelming. Reading letter after letter from the last umpteen years, and knowing where he is now, I don’t know how he does it except he has no choice. I have to finish this for him, and I need to finish this for my grandson.

In the past 5 weeks I recorded 7 new piano pieces – that I kept. I don’t keep everything I record because it is all improv. The latest one will be in the next post as a music video. Writing music for the book keeps my head balanced. Everything fits together. To hear and see my music, videos and photos go to sonniquick.net Get on my mailing list. If you like the music, share it. It is the best way to help me.

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The main thing I’m trying to get across is to never give up. Dream. Do what makes you happy. You only have one life. Make it special. Believe in yourself even if you’re the only one.

Have a great day! Sonni