Music For- Watching The Inside World

 

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This is the music for the post of the previous chapter of Inside The Forbidden Outside on my other blog My Name Is Jamie. Later I will do the video. This music quickly became my fastest rising music at SoundCloud. This is the player at reverbnation where I have my website. You can steam my music there and also subscribe to my music mailing list. I might send as email once a month with new info.

Promotion is extremely time consuming. It’s hard to write music and chapters at the same time but I gradually move it forward more every week.

You Only Have One Life – Live It!

 

You Only Have One Life - Live it.Your opinion of yourself becomes your reality. If you have all these doubts, then no one will believe in you, and everything will go wrong. If you think the opposite, the opposite will happen. It’s that simple. The higher your self-belief, the more your power to transform reality. Having supreme confidence makes you fearless and persistent, allowing you to overcome obstacles that stop most people in their tracks.” – Robert Greene

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This is the way I think. I know this affects what happens in my life. We are what we think. There is a saying I have repeated many times throughout my life:

“If you think you can, you can. If you think you can’t, you can’t. You are right on both counts.” 

If I didn’t believe I could do it I would have given up what I am doing right now – writing my book, “Inside The Forbidden Outside.”  I could have stopped. No one would have cared. Many people have started books they never finished.

If you have followed me at all in the last three years – I’ve been writing this book for that long. I never thought it would take this long. It’s a massive project since I added music and videos. I’m 43,000 words into the 2nd draft, and plug away at some aspect every day. 19 chapters, one finished today. The first draft had 88,000 words. I learned a lot – about what was wrong with it. I also learned how much I didn’t know so I started studying everything I could before I started the second draft 10 months ago. You can read chapters at my other blog: mynameisjamie.net

I think this time it’s better. I know it is. I’m determined it will be. I’ve learned that I love to write. I think I can be good at it – and it doesn’t matter how old you are when you begin,

This is why I wrote down these quotes. I stay focused. I keep the end result in my head and don’t allow myself to doubt. It would be easy to think, “Who am I to think I can do this.” I’ve heard, “First books are never successful – I don’t want you to be disappointed when you fail.”

It is rare for me to take a day off. I am always working on some aspect, even if it just keeping up my social media accounts, because it keeps up my fan base with music, or readers. It grows. When I need a break I play my piano.

It would be easy at my age to not begin new dreams and opt for the comfort of what is known, but that isn’t me.

One of the main things that drives me is that Jamie’s life is in the balance. Re reading all of his letters multiple times as I put his story together, crawling inside his head is overwhelming. Reading letter after letter from the last umpteen years, and knowing where he is now, I don’t know how he does it except he has no choice. I have to finish this for him, and I need to finish this for my grandson.

In the past 5 weeks I recorded 7 new piano pieces – that I kept. I don’t keep everything I record because it is all improv. The latest one will be in the next post as a music video. Writing music for the book keeps my head balanced. Everything fits together. To hear and see my music, videos and photos go to sonniquick.net Get on my mailing list. If you like the music, share it. It is the best way to help me.

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The main thing I’m trying to get across is to never give up. Dream. Do what makes you happy. You only have one life. Make it special. Believe in yourself even if you’re the only one.

Have a great day! Sonni

You’ve got to love yourself — Cristian Mihai

“Your opinion of yourself becomes your reality. If you have all these doubts, then no one will believe in you, and everything will go wrong. If you think the opposite, the opposite will happen. It’s that simple. The higher your self-belief, the more your power to transform reality. Having supreme confidence makes you fearless and […]

via You’ve got to love yourself — Cristian Mihai

This is how I live my life and how I keep going. I tell myself – and others – you are what you think. You accomplish what you believe you will accomplish it. Don’t doubt. Be patient. The road will open for you. But if you don’t think you can do it, whatever it is, you will surely not.

Am I Too Broken To Mend – Poetry and Music

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Fractures from falling
Invisible pain
Counting the minutes
Like drops in the rain
It runs down my body
Soothing my skin
Gathers the heartbeats
Holding them in

Imagine forever
Time without rest
The passing of memories
My hand on my breast
Feeling my heartbeat
Wanting to end
I’m broken in pieces
Too many to mend?

You get back what you give
No more, nothing less
Trace the wound with your finger
A tiny caress
Time doesn’t linger
Waiting to heal
The pieces of you
That forgot how to heal

 

This is the music and poetry for the latest chapter in my book, “Inside The Forbidden Outside”, an awesome and huge project, which those of you who have followed me already know. Those of you who don’t . . .

I’m in the second draft, although some chapters have been through more than that as I have learned more about the art of writing. Writing blog posts is a completely different ballgame. The first draft was more like a book of blog posts than a creative nonfiction story about a man inn prison as he comes to terms with his life and how he got there. You can read a few chapters from the book at my other blog: My Name is Jamie

You can hear all of the music and music videos completed so far at my website sonniquick.net. Join my mailing list at the top of that page to hear about new music.

This book has a piano soundtrack with song titles that match chapter titles. There are also music videos and poetry. Consequently it has taken 3 years to get this far. This post has the music and poetry. The chapter is half completed and the video hasn’t been stated. When I recorded this piece of improv – all of my music is improv – what came out took the breath out of me. I start with an emotion. The music just comes out in response to that emotion.

Appreciate Your Journey

This morning I received this poster from William, a man I am connected to on Messenger. About once aweek or so we exchange something – usually of a positive nature or something about society that needs to change. Today I decided to post our exchange because it is something I feel strongly about.

Think about the words on this poster. What do they mean to you? It’s not about just appreciating your life, but how it causes you to do something about the next step in your life. Life is a journey. It never stays stagnant. How do you get to the next step of where you are going – and what is the purpose? Where are you going? Do you just let life slap you around? Do you understand it is the causes you make that produce the effects in your life and YOU are responsible for that? It would be great if you could blame something or someone else for the bad shit, but you can’t. And it is what you learn through dealing with it that gets you to the next step – if your eyes are open wide enough to see it. Below is my response:

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Many people do not have enough appreciation for their lives. They take it for granted and waste the time they have to explore their own potential. There is no hunger to see what they are capable of, settling for security – if they have it – and going no farther, often stepping on other people to acquire it. The human race is so incredible and many who belong to it are such a disappointment. If we could have but a glimpse inside their psychological thinking to see how they justify to themselves the evil they do. Do they know it? Does it affect them? I’ve been on a rant the last couple days – more than usual, if that is possible.

But in the end – of our own lives – the only legacy we can leave behind that has true value is the effect we had on other lives, and did that effect make a positive difference in their lives. Many people want to be remembered in some way but being remembered Isn’t enough. It is the causes and effects of who you are that matters.

Thanks for your message today. You caught me in a philosophical frame of mind. 😒You have a great day, too.

Life Is a Merry go Round

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It would be easy to read this title and think it’s a happy video. Going to the carnival and having fun. Not Quite. It actually represents 8 prisons so far that Jamie has been moved to from one end of Texas to the other.

This is one of a growing number of music videos to promote my upcoming book, “Inside The Forbidden Outside”. Click on the YouTube link in the video to go to YouTube to like, Subscribe and click the bell for notification of any new videos.

If you’d like to read any chapters or excerpts go to my other blog My Name Is Jamie. My Life in Prison. The book cover heads any posts with chapters of “Inside The Forbidden Outside”.

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Do You Live For Yourself – Or Others?

Do You Live For Yourself – Or Others?

 

Did you grow up in your hometown, marry young, buy a house close by and stay there for the rest of your life; or did you spread your wings and fly off, finding new places and new friends, living places you chose to move to as the opportunity presented itself and saw life as an adventure? Is one way better than the other? Look at yourself now. Did you do the right thing? Would you admit it to yourself if you didn’t? Would you go back and do something different?

I’m in my mid 60’s. I enjoy my age. I think I’ve acquired a bit more wisdom, and a heck of a lot of determination to finish life pleased with how I lived it. I climbed the mountains and survived – so far. As I look back on my life, each decade I went through was in a different place as well as a different way to survive, staying away from the conventional paycheck and instead relying on my ingenuity.

I know clearly where I was at each development of wisdom. Why me? What made me want to experience newness while the rest of my family felt comfort and security was more important because everything stayed the same? Someone I grew up with once told me she wished nothing would ever change. She’d stay in her house. She said she didn’t need any friends, they were too much bother. Was that her idea of happiness? Looking at her life now what effect did that have on our relationship? Not a good one.

What makes one person want to experience the newness that comes along in life? We have a choice to grab onto it or ignore it. Do we take the chance to make new friends or change careers, or perhaps begin a new hobby, and another person in the same family chooses the safety of only what is familiar, the comfort of routine and the predictability of sameness. Work the same job for decades even though they hated it? For the paycheck? It is worth giving up the possibly of finding a creative part of yourself just to stay in your predictable comfort zone?

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It takes all kinds of people to make the world go ’round. There isn’t one perfect way that is good for everyone. I chose long ago to not live with fear of the unknown. Any day could be my last – your last. I would rather leave this life with a smile on my face with the possibility of a new adventure on the horizon. When do you stop living with anticipation? “What if I went there and learned how to do that?”

The real definition of failure lies in never trying; crawling into your routine until you can finally justify your actions by saying, “I’m too old.”

Long ago I developed a mantra and have told it to many people along the way who also have had people in their own lives who had opinions about how they should live their life, even though it wasn’t theirs to judge. “If you don’t like what I’m doing, don’t watch me do it.” I don’t care what other people think about my life, especially when they don’t want to be part of it.

I’ve never owned a home, nor have I wanted to. I want to be able to leave when I’m ready, and I don’t want to have to repair the roof or other maintenance.

I want to be able to choose how I spend my day. Will I ever “grow up?” I seriously hope not. Life should be enjoyed. If you take care of yourself you have a better chance of not letting age bring you down where all you have to talk about with your friends are your medical problems. I will go out with a fight.

Every day you wake up is a day you can fill to the top with things of value. You are what you think. You attract people in your life who appreciate who you are.  If they don’t appreciate you get rid of them. They aren’t worth the trouble. The people I grew up with became people I couldn’t be around any more. Or rather, they couldn’t be around me. My mother told me more than once, “You scare them.” Inner strength and confidence makes some people uncomfortable. So I was kicked out of family get-togethers because maybe I’ll say something outside of the platitudes of talking about jobs and weather. I also hate gossiping about the perceived misfortunes of others.

Everyone has a choice about how they are going to live their lives. Some are waiting to die hoping for happiness later. I choose to be happy now – or die trying!

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